i'm told to leeead, not to reeead.
Monday, March 30, 2009
10:52 PM
God tells me that He loves me, every single day
God tells me that He loves me, at home at school at play.
God tells me and this I know, everything God says it's so
God tells me that He loves me, every single day.
:D
it's a children's song but it is so true. the children songs are the ones that are most straightforward. it's gooooood.
but some nursery rhymes, well.. for instance "rock a bye baby"
google it. SPOOKY.
and there are many others. can't remember all now.
i am getting better at the production. getting things done and doing it more confidently. actually, i should thank God for giving me this opportunity. if not for my friend, i wouldn't have seen it in this perspective. my lecturer only chose a handful of people in my class to be stage and production managers. apparently i'm one of them. and those who were handpicked are those who are responsible and punctual and reliable and everything nice. i felt so good hearing that.
for the first time in my life, i feel monitress-y. haha!
FYI: i was never a monitress before. highest post i ever got was.. health education books leader.
HAHAHAHAHA.
ok peace out A town.
God loves me & u,
e-van
killing me softly.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
10:59 PM
mum: i think e-van need to exercise already.
me: OUCH.
mum: need to swing your arms.
me: ouch painful.
mum: your arm needs some toning.
me: excruciating pain.
my body is so easily tired. now it's all aching- my shoulders and my legs. i am not proud about this but i am a terrible long distance runner.
one excuse i found for myself is: my legs are shorter so i run double the steps.... it's true! i take two steps when others take one. so unfair leh.
i'm still stressed in school still. can't wait for the production to be over. i hate being in charge of something i do not even know what i'm doing and what he others are talking about.
he says, "feel free to ask any questions when in doubt".
when asked, there is a obvious and apparent frown and a big SIGH of not relief, but irritance, "YES?".
i'm sure i'm not being oversensitive.
love,
e-van
low.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
11:07 PM
life is so tired.
ups and downs.
i don't understand why i'm given a task i do not even know how to do. i hate this feeling. i don't want to do this. even if it's a small production.
arggghhhhh.
homeworks. thank you romeo for helping me out.
i wanna exercise.
i wanna do so many things.
i am not working.
so i'm not earning money.
but i'm sucking money out from my parents.
i can't save from my allowance either cos if i do it will mean i will have to compromise on lunch/dinner. AND I CANNOT DO THAT.
i hate this feeling.
i look forward to the bright light at the end of the tunnel.
love,
e-van
if i were a boy...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
12:32 AM
i will have such fabulous fashion sense,
i will go shopping with my girl/guy friends,
I WILL NOT BE GAY,
i will ask for a lot of pretty girls numbers,
girls will definitely be automatically charmed by me,
i don't have to worry about thunder thighs,
i don't have to worry about high heels,
i will be sporty... i think,
i will have a super nice body!
i won't act cool,
i won't drool over girls,
FYI: girls will drool over me,
i will do the most sweetest thing for my girlfriend,
i WILL NOT WEAR TRAILS SLIPPERS,
i will not carry bags below $50,
(they are really usually uglier, sorry.)
i might use foundation,
i will take care of my face very very well.
IF I WERE A BOY.
Shasta.
he is such a smart dog. and very very naughty. he thinks his owners are stupid. but we are not!!! we are very very smart! what a naughty dog.
One should not hang out with people who don't belong to their "world".
That's why we have cliques.
So, a good piece of advice, stick to your clique.
Although i know forming cliques is not such a good thing, one should not go out with people who they cannot clique with.
Have fun in life.
Have fun with life.
Make the right friends and stick to them.
love,
e-van
INSANITY.
Monday, March 9, 2009
12:16 PM
Of a cluttered home,
of the smell of dog's urine and shit,
of clean laundry all over the place,
of dirty laundry all over the place,
of a big bag of clothes to sell,
of a big bag of bags to sell,
of so little clothes left to wear,
of so many clothes not meant for wearing,
of such hot weather,
of such cold and wet weather,
of the tears in the night,
of the joy in the day,
i'm still sane.
SHIFTY EYES.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
3:21 PM
we played block catching yesterday. it was SOOO FUN!!!! and tiring of course- how can i forget that? but what a fun training! high intensity training i must say! i'd like to play it again! :) :)
it's been raining for days & i can never find the time to fly my kite.
God please stop the rain for me please!
i got my top braces. i specially requested for COLOURFUL as usual. but honestly, i am ashamed of it cos now i look like i have rotten teeth cos of the different colours!!! i look METALLIC-KY. haha.
i watched "he's just not that into you". what a cute movie! i like it! it's the kind of "awwwww..." movie. heh! :D
to one of my dearest friend:
no matter what we did that day, i hope you can see it in a different light and not think negatively. it came from good intentions and deep down, you know we still love you.
love,
e-van
