sadness fills my heart.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
10:24 PM
apparently the nice harem pants i bought in queensway was not of good material. i'm so sad. but i still love it and still have hopes in it. :) i'll still wear you harem pants! i still love you!
weather was hot today. my relatives had a lot to say.. as usual. "why you wearing panty on your head ar?", "why you wear black on chinese new year ar?", "why you always wear weird weird one ar?".. stuff like that. but, i like the way i am so nobody's gonna stop me. so, if you wanna be my future HUSBAND, ACCEPT ME. or just constantly praise my fabulous dress sense. i'll be elated and probably have more reason to love you. HAHA.
love love love,
e-van
somebody kill me before i kill her. and her.
12:13 AM
i'm finally done with tidying up my room and rearranging the furnitures in it. i even got a new reading lamp! (: (:
today went to bai nian. first at my uncles'. where all the children (i dunno how it only started this year, unexpectedly and surprisingly natural) from the older to the younger ones, we started...
wait. everyone. someone just farted in my room. i won't disclose the person's name but i'll give a hint. the fourth daughter of the Yeung family. it stinks to the high heavens. like rotten egg. OMG. don't tell her i told you this.
anyway, we started saying words of blessings while the adults sit on the special chair. everyone had their very own solo performances. it was quite funny because my cousin Henry couldn't think of anything so before his turn he quickly went to google for chinese words of blessings.. so funny. but he couldn't find any by the way.
then at night i got scolded by my drunk auntie for being rude for smsing during the dinnertable. first, i was only eating with the latecomers- evon and simon. we were all busy eating and hardly talking. then my drunk auntie suddenly came and scold me that. and my other auntie whispered in my ear "she's definitely drunk. don't care her". i felt better.
happy chinese new year.
okay bye.
love,
e-van
half empty or half full?
Saturday, January 24, 2009
11:39 PM
Did something happen? something you wanna tell me? if it is really important and you really need to tell someone, you can email me. but i cannot guarantee i will reply. i'm sorry but i am really trying to stick to the rules and the promises given and made to our friend. please try to understand that it's not that i'm blameless. i'm almost fully to blame. but this one month is for us to take a breather. or maybe more for me.
today we had reunion dinner at uncle fai's house. we slowly changed those chen yu to "hallelujah", "amen", "God bless us" and all. it was really quite fun.
played card games after that. the game of bluff. very very fun. then all of a sudden, there was this beetle that landed on eliz's thighs and everyone started screaming and shouting. overwhelmed by shock, eliz tried her best to flick the beetle away from herself. which then landed on evon. she ran screaming around the room, everyone avoiding her except her heroic boyfriend Mr. Cheo who removed the beetle with his bare hands from her shirt. eeeeek.
i am so ready for chinese new year. & please don't be so sad anymore. please be happy. :)
love,
e-van
XING NIAN KUAI LE.
Friday, January 23, 2009
11:30 PM
hello, i am quite fine. i do not like what i'm going through now emotionally and i hope u do not rub it in. please do not ask me any question regarding my current feeling or whatsoever because u are only pressurizing me even more. please understand and stop being scrupulous and manipulative. i do not want to be manipulated by u time and again.
school has been great. the friends are great, the classmates are wonderful. today, during emcee class (it's more like a voice-over class where we learn to be like DJs in the radio or voices of characters/cartoons). we came up with an idea. horror. & i'm pretty excited about it. it will be in the form of radio. i will sound like samuel (my cute same-height-as-me 13 year old little brother).
i wanna buy something red to wear for chinese new year. anyway, happy new year to you.
for this year's chinese new year, i wish to get to this "certain amount" so i can pay for my next hair perming session. this time, my hairstylist (keith lee from takashimaya Reds- he's great, i love him) is gonna try something new. very very very tight curls. kinda excited about it. & i don't know how i'm gonna turn out like. but, i trust keith. when has he ever failed me? GO KEITH!
happy chinese new year with love,
e-van
Thursday, January 22, 2009
8:07 PM
hello. it's MANUAL not manuel. and the word "sibei sian" no need to use right? can use something like "bored with life" or something right? what's with hokkien man. anyway, school has been stressful. it's not only school, but what i'm going through just made me break out in tears during singing class. u're so mean. u used to praise me and just because i was late for your class, and knowing i will be marked absent, i still went. but you kept on rubbing in that i was late. "e-van, can you tell us what we just did? oh sorry i forgot, you were late!", "class started a long time ago, just that you were not here".. those words of sarcasm, was it really necessary?
folkdance. we danced like, according to my russian teacher, "pinguins". hahaha. i got the steps right mind you. stop thinking i was wrong. miss elena said i was doing all the right steps.
changed my braces to blue today. i like. doing top braces in March. very excited.
&, i do miss you too. :)
love,
e-van
DILEMMATIC PHASE OF MY LIFE
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
11:44 PM
i don't know if this is one of that other phase of life i'm having. we call it, the "j***ick phase". but this is no ordinary phase, or maybe it is. i don't know!! it's me being emotionally unsure and unstable again. why ah why..... perhaps i've yet to grow up? perhaps i haven't really met the one? perhaps perhaps perhaps (playing the perhaps song faintly in the background). anyway, a friend asked me "what is love actually? this one love that one also love". haha. that's the most singaporean answer i've came across so far. but well, that's exactly what i'm going through now. so stupid!!!! stupittt!!! shiiit!!! okay bye.
still in a deep dilemma,
E-VAN
oh and my speech teacher labelled me as "sergeant major" today. yes, it's a compliment. yay.
